He is just not that into me

He finally said goodbye. I asked him yesterday when I could see him again and he replied with a smiley:

:-(

I'm glad the chase is over. I am not sourgraping but I don't think issues-laden bagets can replace my LTR. Just when I was about to tell him that I had a bf, he stopped communicating. Weird, He must have sensed it. His timing was impeccable.

Forwarded text message:

Sometimes you just want to quit when things start hurting you. Ypu want to leave everything as it is before the pain gets worse. But once you remember how much you've prayed, how much you really want it, and why you are fighting in the first place; hope comes back into your heart. And maybe, just maybe . . .

it is worth going this far.

Back to work

Everyone is on work mode again. My holiday break has been peppered by bitter unanswered calls and unreplied text messages, flavored with a dash of sweet and romantic french kisses, and topped by warm tobacco-filled evening conversations.

Si J kasi mapang-akit pero pakipot. He was such a teaser.







Too bad he doesn't tease me anymore. :-(

New Jay in my life

Funny how the Jay (probably not his real name) I was pining for last month got replaced by a new one whose name starts with J as well. And I've got a theme song for him:

Insomnia by Craig David

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough
Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up
Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah
Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because
I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

I met him in the same place where I met Jay 1. We hung out in his place twice, for two consecutive nights. He was very sweet. We were just kissing and groping each other the whole time. I didn't want to go all the way without him telling me his real name and me telling him that I actually have a boyfriend (whose name starts with ...... J!). We were suppposed to meet again the next evening but he never showed up. No phone calls, no text messages. I am wondering why.

Mahirap talaga pag bagets. Pabago-bago ng isip.